I found you again
The relief I feel is amazing
I thought you were lost forever
But to find you
All I had to do was look at the clues,
Find you in the stars
Find you in the trail of tears you left behind
Hoping I would one day find you again
In case I became lost
In case I forgot who you were
As you wrote sonnets in the sky
As you described your pain in a way that we came together
As you reminded us of who we loved
I missed you so much
In these lonely years without your constant presence
Sure you’d leave traces in the dust
Leave torturous reminders of lost love and your disconnection with the present
Try to guide me to our future together,
only to find a treasure map with missing pieces
But here you are with your feelings laid about, in a time where being human was okay, but not only okay – celebrated
You retreated when you felt unwelcome inside your own body
When all you wanted to say was sorry for the way you were
A beautiful painting distorted into a nightmare
The colors almost blended together, but a few stand out
In the traces of the pallete you left for me to finish the painting
I am happy to have found you, basking in the glory of your success, happiness, and loveliness
It’s funny how traces and past letters bring tears of joy to my heart
How much more of a whole person we are together
And now you know why you’ve been crying all these years
Because we’ve been too far apart,
To say we’re sorry to our friends and family, when you know they deserved none of this
Burnt bridges, friendships locked away, short ropes unable to reach
The ability to connect is lost
Sadness, regret, shame, depression
They have torn us apart
But we integrated once again,
And now I feel joy and exuberance
Let us hope to never part again
Love,
Xara Nahara O’Connor
This is beautiful Xara, so glad to see you writing like this. I hope you are happy!
Thank you! That is a high honor coming from you, Chevvy. And yeah, I’m fine. I do need to go back to sleep. How are you?
I wouldn’t want to stand between you and sleep but I am well and happier from hearing from you. Take care!
Thank you, darling. It’s been a while, but life gets in the way.
Nice ❤ ❤ ❤
Thank you.
I wonder if this isn’t how dogs feel every time their people come home from work…
LOL. I think so.
Wow Xara this is powerful, so emotionally charged. I love it! I could feel myself ebb and flow with your words. Beautiful.
Thank you. That is the response I wanted you to have. 🙂