Come to think of it, it has been forever since I posted. I have been playing Stardew Valley for a month instead. It’s a great game to distract me from the horrible nightmare called real life. It has gotten to the point where I am afraid to go outside because it’s soul-sucking. I’ve been really depressed over everything that is going on. Some days, I feel powerless and disappointed that my life hasn’t gotten further than it has. Financial problems are almost unbearable. I feel lonely a lot.
Before I was about 27 years old, I used to travel and go see friends. I would go to conventions. I felt comfortable around people I considered friends. Now, it’s work and go home. Stardew Valley IS my outlet. Other people seem more like enemies now. It feels like the world doesn’t want me here.
Xara Nahara O’Connor